Sometimes I wonder if my mind is pushing my body into a defensive mode. Because.. Maybe just because I can't cope. Or maybe I just don't want to. Everyday, I just stare at the teacher like I'm in a trance. My mind slips away and automatically, I tunes out my teacher's talking.
I find activities to distract me and make 3 periods a little bearable. My eyes lit up and I smile every time the bell that marks the end of a period rings. I would stare at my watch and urge it to go a little faster.
I have to tell myself, this seriously isn't the N levels. I can't afford to fall back now, only to catch up during term3-4.
I know on the outside, I don't look like I care. And everybody's thinking 'Aiya Marjorie. Confirm can score one la.' Just because in secondary 3 I always slept in class and still managed to be top in class, everyone's expectations of me were raised. :@
When I finally get the energy to focus on the board, I realised that what I'm staring at was pretty strange. My brain can't grasp anything. Then I fall back into sleepy/day-dream mode and tell myself, 'Another day... I will revise. Other days. I will understand, eventually.'
Just few days back, I was reading a book throughout 3 periods of maths. Today, I was de-blinging my phone. Sorry, but maths was totally UNBEARABLE. Ask me what is matrices, and I'll probably go 'WTF How do I know?'
Anyway my stupid CC thinks all his 'o level naggings' are getting into us and making us see sense that 'oh, yea, I have to work hard.' NO! Bullshit. It just gets everybody into the 'omg, not the naggings again???' mood and then everybody wants to sleep. And now we hate geog. Ok maybe not we, me.
The good news is that I'm starting to pay attention in chemistry. 30%? Obviously I am paying 100% in phyics!!!!!! Eng-40%. Maths-0%. Geog-2%. Ss-100%.
I don't know why I am so interested in ss. Lol. Kuwait and Iraq! But I failed my test and it made me realise once again that this isn't the N levels. Urgh.
I better not screw this and I better get outta the fucking school in 8months' time.
by Marj
Sunday, February 7, 2010 @11:41 PM
Have I told you lately that I love you?
Oh hai! So yeah, I went to the airshow yesterday!!! Was supposed to meet Alex @my void deck @7, but I was late again. :( Then we trained down to hm to get some stuff! Luckily we dint buy chips this time.
Met Bob(WZ) and Glen and bussed down to changi airport! It was 8++ but the bus was packed. Wheeee. And we alighted at T3. I must say that the management was GOOD, because we dint have to wait to get into a bus. (Y) But then again, it has to be right? We paid $21 bucks, they can't expect us to wait for the bus.
We reached there around nine plus, ten?? So early right! Was really bored at first and dint take any photos because of Alex and Bob's DSLR! :( Then Alex kept asking 'Why you so sad? Why you so bored? Why you never take photos one? You wanted to come here ok.' So I took Marcus out and snapped a few photos, patronising him. But soon, I was bussssy snapping photos hahaha. The weather was reallyyyy HOT.
Bob and Glen disappeared so Alex and I went around by ourselves to look at planessss! JET PLANES ARE LOVE OMGGGG. But very few displays. After 1hour I got bored:( But then we decided to wait for the show. They were soooooo dumb. 11.30am start the show. 12NN the sun was above our head and all of us like stupid, kept looking into the sun. :@
So after the korean air force's display, I was going 'WHAT? NOT DONE? Urg' I felt giddy and wanted to faint:( Then I just sat down and felt sad because I couldn't watch anymore. Alex brought me into the air con exhibition hall soon:) I'm so sorry we dint finish watching.
Sat at a corner until I felt better! Then I wanted to eat BK so we headed back to the airport and had bk. Grilled chicken yay! Stupid Alex wore the 'crown' and walked around T2. I kept pretending that I dint know him, lol.
Took 3+ hours to blog, so you better see all the photos you ass! I don't care if you're not interested in planes or me+Alex ;)
Sorry for sucky photos. The sun was blinding me throughout so I couldn't see.
This pic looks so computerish.
This one too. Me likey:)
Someday..... SOMEDAY I'M GONNA SIT IN THT
Stupid guy. People taking photo you don't know how to siam? Or must I use a DSLR before you will? Tsk.
I wanted that!!!!!! Weather was mad hot.
Little bird!
f15-E!
Action angmoh posing there. Everybody only wanted to take photos of the plane, then he so extra.
(L)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
This is a pretty jet! My 2nd favourite. 1st is F16-C!
Turtle looking plane! But Alex says that it looks like a dolphin.
Hello honey!
With my 2nd favourite jet!
Hello Mr Tourist!
Oh hi Bob and Glen!
I can see me!!!!
Favouritest photos! (L)the bg!
No, Im not jealous okay.
Me taking photos!
No, I can't drink Ribena in peace.
I look like an indian in both photos pls.
I like this one! Lol.
Bye!!! We're leaving.
Second flag from the left!
Being forced to wear the bk crown)=
by Marj
Saturday, February 6, 2010 @6:12 PM
Air show!
WENT TO THE AIR SHOW JUST NOWWWWW, with Alex, Bob and Glen. It was super humid I tell you. Ok, SHALL BLOG BOUT IT LIKE TMRW. Because I am tired right now :( If I'm happy, I will edit the vids and post them up. (ps pls don't tell bob that I don't know how to edit vids. I don't know wht prog to use :O)
Anyway, I'm going to china town with my family @night! So I shall combine them into one post. Kk bye. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
MARCUS IS THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME. Oh well. Maybe when I get a dslr in the future, I'll ditch Marcus and say the same bout it. Hahaha. No, actually was joking bout the first sentence. Alex is. :)
by Marj
@8:50 AM
On the bus to airport.
Marjorie is being a pig.
by alex.
Friday, February 5, 2010 @11:58 PM
Cold as ice, perhaps?
Went to bishan library with Char and Eileen. Char headed for the basement immediately -_- And the stupid library chased us up to the second floor. Went to the fourth instead and Char and I giggled as we browsed through this section, lol! Eileen fell asleep and a librarian came to nag again. Stupid lousy librarians.
After we borrowed our books (YES WE BORROWED 6ITEMS EACH!), we went to shopppppppp woooo.
Going to air show tomorrow! EXPECT A LOT OF PHOTOS. Haha I'm so stoked! Bye bye, I'm going to bed. Long day tomorrow hehe.
yeah.ok.maybe.whatever.
(L)
Stupid COW
HUG :)
Haha some book.
WALAO EH CHAR PLS LA, HOW OLD ONLY?? Tsk tsk *Shakes head in disapproval*
Left: Ugly. Right: NAISE.
Everything has changed. The faces stay the same.
by Marj
Tuesday, February 2, 2010 @12:00 AM
The moment you decided to let love in.
NO I won't let you go, you're a part of me now. Caught by the taste of your kiss.
I can't imagine any greater fear, than waking up without you here. Though the sun will still shine on, my whole world will all be gone.
Happy second month dear.♥
by Marj
Sunday, January 31, 2010 @11:11 PM
And I've fallen for you.
Today I was supposingly going shopping with baby. Can you believe that I have not gone to Iluma till today?? But whateverrrr, that place is HUGE but empty. -_- Anyway.... It felt so weird to shop with a guy, hahaha! Everytime I enter a shop, his face immediately turned into those 'i-am-bored' face.
Trained down to orchard because I cannot stand going into bugis street, so hot and stuffy! Shopping with a guy is really weird. :O So I gave up and we went to cineleisure to catch the tooth fairy!
Hehe. After that went to SECRET PLACE lolz.
You opened my eyes to see a whole new life. When everyday begins, I'll fall for you again. Cuz when I die, then I die loving you. :)
by Marj
Friday, January 29, 2010 @9:27 PM
Bmt sounds very fun.
Helloooooooo!!! Life is turning out great but something is still bothering me. It's alright though. Not everything can go the way you want it to go. ;)
My dnt proj is finally progressing. Javen is indeed my life saver! Going in the direction he suggested, and I found out that I'm not in the haze anymore. Everything is starting to make sense. &Wong keeps going 'This one is very good you know. Very detailed.' It gives me hope and motivates me. :)
Geog is still stupid though. 'Let us...change our attitude. We cannot be like that anymore! This year is the O levels, so you cannot last minute study. Maybe you did for your N levels la, I don't know? But O level is different. If you think you cannot take this, I suggest you go for the april intake for ITE. I may be sounding like I'm looking down on you guys ok, I apologise ok. I just want us to know that this is going to be tough if you guys don't start putting in the effort now...........................bla, bla, bla'
I hate how he keeps saying 'Let us...'
Whatever okay. Just because he is our CC doesn't mean he have to be that irritating? Luckily I am about to start self revision. Wooo I love myself! (L)(L)(L) My goal is pushing me forward. I can do it!
Listening to 'knock it down' now lol! If you don't have a girlfriend at least now you've got a wife. She just turned 21 and so you guard her with your life!!
4 more days!!!! Mad exciteddddd
No venture, no gain!
Flashback haunts. Why? I stopped reminiscing ages ago. Pls, stop coming back to me.
by Marj
Sunday, January 24, 2010 @10:52 PM
Nine december.
WOOO. I was looking forward to this day since forever! Like, before my N level even started? So yeah, we went to the zoo. Alex and I were the first to arrived. The rest was late, tskk.
Took the bus from amk hub to the zoo:) Went to walk ard. Suddenly, it poured and we got trapped with the cute squirrels and leopard cat.
We went to kids world and had kfc. Alex decided to play in the water, so Amy and I joined him, lol. Coolness. We dint bring any extra set of clothing. (Y) Then it poured, again. Took the tram after the rain subsided.
Stayed there till 6pm, then we hurriedly took a bus back to amk hub to catch the new moon movie. It sucked! Haha.
Sorry it took so long for this post to be up. To compensate, here are TONS of photos for u!
Staring @ rocodileees!
Pinky, longy legged creatures:D
I think Eileen was begging Amy to team up with her. Haha!
ACT SHY.
Stupid picky elephant who has to sleep with the leafy pillow.
Charmaine: EH This one is my sister's friend. LOL
I like the colour of this photo.
Kiss the ass.
WHITE TIGERRRRRRRR!
(Y) Alex took this.
He is forever looking down.
I don't like this bird.
AHHHHHH Cuteness(L)
Char wanted to kidnap this home.
Kids world.
Don't hate me ok, Eileen. Hate Char cuz she took this. Haha.
Drenched TTM.
It was staring at me! :)
Aww so cute.
AWWW CUTE TO THE VERY MAX
Zhixian and Char!
Black horse.
Finally I can say, THIS IS MINE, YOU CANNOT SNATCH. :P
Polar bear.
Alex: Bcuz I can!!!! I cannot see the stupid insect pls.:P
(L)(L)(L)!!!!!
Candid.
Alex reading the map.
Black with white strips, or white with black strips?
Your bestfriend!
They have blue tongues, SRSLY!
Stupid lioness.
Snakeyyyy
Look@the cam!!!!!!
Go into the tank and be its bestfriend:)
Orange eyed thing
Aww lovey snakes. I don't care. The blue one is a male and the red one is a female.
Rattle snake.
Hehe!
by Marj
Saturday, January 23, 2010 @11:05 PM
Take a hold on me.
Went out with B today.
We'll be free to live our life. There's nothing and no one we'll miss, and one day we'll look back with no regrets.
